It rains and it pours, but the old man isn't snoring.

Washington is a beautiful place to live, just not Yakima, theres green plant life everywhere and that with the rain keeps the air clean and crisp. Whenever its sunny, everyone is joyous at the sight of even a beam of light.
The music, the food, and oh the COFFEE. oh god the coffee, were known for having Starbucks on every corner and its true i know of a few places where its literally a coffee shop a few feet away from each other! We have to stay warm some how.
Admittedly the artists here can be pretentious. Sorry but i don't find a penis sculpture to mean anything but that you decided to make a six foot tall erection. first thursday of December is my art gallery browsing spree. All the best aaand most crazy artist come out. it can really go both ways, no middle ground. Its cold theres, holiday cheer everywhere! and an important time for me. An anniversary to things, right before everything changed in 2009.

Now that i have a child

I have to change, i can't run from my problems, thats no longer an option. I need to turn and fight the horrors hiding inside of me. I'd call them demons but even they come with a priest and directions to rid of them. Here i just have thoughts i can't control.

I thought i controlled my mind, but recently thoughts have slipped in that i can't get out. Do i need help? i don't have time for that, i just need to get my head on straight. I'm over thinking this? I've pushed the thoughts back before and i can do it again.

How did i get myself into this?