Now that i have a child

I have to change, i can't run from my problems, thats no longer an option. I need to turn and fight the horrors hiding inside of me. I'd call them demons but even they come with a priest and directions to rid of them. Here i just have thoughts i can't control.

I thought i controlled my mind, but recently thoughts have slipped in that i can't get out. Do i need help? i don't have time for that, i just need to get my head on straight. I'm over thinking this? I've pushed the thoughts back before and i can do it again.

How did i get myself into this?